Dying

Today was a sad day. My family and I had to put one of our family dogs (Emma) down. She didn't even seem sick. Come to find out she had been sick since birth, and should have never lived passed a year and a half. So I am thankful that we had her for a little over 4 years! I feel that letting someone go is so hard. It never seems easy saying good bye. As I held Emma's head while she was being put down I couldn't help but wonder where are you going? Why are you leaving my family and causing such a HUGE whole in our hearts? Then it gets me thinking about people who have to deal with a child dying and how unfair that is. I once saw a 2 year old and his father get struck by a car killing the little boy. The look on this fathers face all bloody and just blank. How could something like this happen! How is that you can be here on day and be gone the next. This is something I realize is never going to be answered or gonna get easier letting people go. I am going on 24 and everyone I know is going on a year older two. One day everyone will die and I will have to watch people around me become old and slowly slip from my life. Just to come home and having one less dog makes my life feel a little less full like something is missing. So when people start disappearing from my life and the hole in my life gets bigger and will never be fixed what am I to do? Who am I to turn to? When I am gone will there be a hole in others hearts?